NEVER AGAIN will I love sparingly

NEVER AGAIN will I see daddy dying in 1977 birth another baby see bloody menstrual cycle own a home although two were sold pay federal taxes to support wars retire at 65...now 67 believe in a religion keep secrets...they tear you apart be afraid to Feel my Feelings: will I ever use the F word feel ashamed of my tears which I rub into my cheeks as natural moisturizer. hate my mother speak in anger feel guilty for dancing drive over 75mph, maybe party hardy (hehsheheshe) be judgmental love sparingly miss 10:43(am or pm), saying I love you, which time is now. will I forget your love for me daddy. You are in my heart never (again) truly gone.